BLEHHHHHHHHHHH. :P
i didnt go sch ytd. couldnt pull myself to go :P 45 mins there and 45 mins back lehhhhh
oh mannnnnnnnnnnnn.im being LAZY nowadays :(

anyways.i just went to search hougang cc stuff online.and i couldnt find anything :(
mann.wanted to find some course to join

oh yaaaaa. and my mum's fren jie jie yc(that's what i call her) wants me to sing for her wedding
will get back to her though
i dont have any happy songs in mind for her wedding
:(

will try to think of some

im talking on the phone to dardar.and my mind is totally blank.:Pwhat am i gonna write?
then i remember.dardar helped me a few days ago.
thanks dardar
:D

dardar made me realised that i forgot that singing was supposed to be me singing for the sake of myself and -->i guess it was the reason that i was scared/conscious of how people will judge and comment my singing that made me forgot

for now.WHO CARES??I LOVE SINGING AND IM PROUD TO ANNOUNCE THAT!!!!!!
:D thanks dardar.

went to suntec with family for the straits times competition thing that they joined
so called :P to win a touran<--its a car's name. but somehow after my dad's "cleverly" changing of pronunciation of words to something that he can easily pronounce, it became "tu lan".hahahas.as usual my dad

hahahs.then on the way to suntec, we past by bugis and i saw HOTNESS!!!! at bugis.IITSC was having a flag day at bugis.

anyways.we went to suntec.and my mum went to look at chan brothers stuff and the tangs bazaar. and i went to look at the investfair and job central fair.in the convention hall for investfair, this uncle told me to go for this course to learn how to trade in FX market and all that. AFTER he spent 10 minutes telling me why i should sign up for this course.i decided that i should not tell him that this is actually what im learning in my course now.so yaaaaaa.

then there was another auntie who was super cutee :D she started telling me about development banking.so i started asking her questions too.then she asked me which course and school i am in.
then at the end she said next time when u start working and earn a lot of money.remember to call me.
ahahhahas.funny laaaaaaa :D

i went to the jobcentral fair and saw joanne and her bf.went to the study in australia booth.and was totally saddedd:(
the grants that they give is for students who have GPA of 3.98!!!!!! OMG
i'll never qualify.not in another hundred years:(

oh yaa.and i remember now.we had derv presentation + q&a on fri.it was SCARYYY.the people questioning us was ivan, nicholas and clement. they shoot me a lot of questions till i was close to speechless.but when we came out, they apologized to me. i realised that they are quite nice people :D

for q&a, we questioned reanne's bf grp, i didnt know what questions to ask so i just asked 2 questons to ming chong( i think this is the way to spell his name).

ECONS WAS A KILLER!FOR ME :P COS I DIDNT REALLY STUDY :(

today ur actions hurt me
the pulling of another chair, the sitting on another chair as u didnt want to sit with me
the shifting of ur lappie to another spot in e lab
it pains me.ur fren understood my feelings.but do u?
everybody keeps telling me that u are stressed. that i should not blame u. but wat about me?
but would u treat me the same way that u did if u were stressed again?

i wanna be happy again
tell me what i want to hear

this few days i just feel tired.like just TIRED.
many plans shattered.
like the one that mummy told me that i could only study in local uni

somehow thinking back
i kinda blame myself for expecting too much cos i should have known that our family didnt have enough money for me to go overseas.

and today erly told me that last night her mum decided to go london.
so she will be studying her degree overseas and her mum will study too.

i wonder would i be as excited as her if i EVER get the chance? the chance of living in a county different from Singapore.the chance where i might learn to be independent?